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i giggle when they say no to me.. for me honestly... no is.... yes in disguise and it is fun to experience the transformation...from no to thousands yes..

reading Matsnawi... makes me forget that my feet are on here, the earth.. my soul is flying to its source where love is the only word.. others keep silent and take a bow going home...

jogging this morning and I could feel my feet kissing the earth..in rhythm inhaling the air..morning breeze smells of breakfast and coffee from houses, the hectic of beginning the day while i passed and peeking thru their windows and leaves, flowers, grass, clouds..and my soul they think it is just an ordinary day, starting the routine I love to tell you once more..please, dont take it for granted morning is beyond amazing...

remembered my wish long ago when saw some writers had meeting in one cafe..sipping their coffee,,,and talking passionately their eyes were gazing outside between their discussions...it was cloudy day they had tons of things to be enjoyed I could see creativity sat with them feeling down inside  knowing they had lived abundance lives writing and sharing the feelings  I was damn jealous now... I am sitting at the same cafe drinking my coffee and writing... the shadows of them..and my wish all are staying with me... learned one thing today that my wishes never leave me

go beyond my assumptions forget about limitations.. I am listening to what others say but I could not say no to opportunities and miracles

whenever I say.. I trust you.. the same question is there do I trust me? I love you.. and this question appears without doubt do I love myself as I am....

asked me; is it okay for having this feeling afraid because you never felt this jealousy before for me your honesty always inspires me creating thousands and thousands more ways to tell you this i do love you as you are

I do make mistakes.. and I do love them.. they are my best friends stay with me and keep calling me they observe me and tell me...okay, forget your self image image that diligently I build day by day so people think I am good enough to be part human and part angel after all..I do love my mistakes they don't see me as angel never but they do give me my wings

and why do I have to be tense when I see people get tense and try to make me it is about choices and I choose to imitate life be calm ...and flowing

why do I have to be tense? this universe is flowing..and be content not in rush or want more... not eager to create my future controlling every results questioning every responses maybe I do get tense whenever I resist to walk hand by hand with life keep asking life to walk based on what I want

reading these totally different genre books, stepping on different worlds how to enjoy life a la french women while Steve Berry takes me to antwerp and china, chased by some eunuchs and fifty shades talks about dark modern Cinderella story. a cup of coffee and books, a perfect combination for me they let me live thousands lives, could be anyone and not losing me at the same time

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forgot who I am feeling like I have lived here for so long love the foods, and the people I did steal their life for some days drinking coffee with them and icy wind blew over our faces walking in fast pace around the city but you were the one who did remind me to go home.. and be with you.. travel with me, you asked me.. walking in slow pace you and me Jogja and Ubud Paris or Seoul Ho Chi Minh where ever life takes us

“Love is the whole thing. We are only pieces.” ― Rumi

listening to you and sip my coffee.. caressing your face with my eyes.. it's raining and smell of fresh coffee is all around us watching your laughs while telling you my jokes.. for me, heaven is here

It is cloudy outside.. already finished my coffee.. looking deep into my heart see the fears the past is a ghost haunting every words or things you do I may easily judge you and have new reasons to escape from dependency sometimes you look into my eyes and say..stupid things in your brain..let them go yes, some are gone..few are there You offer me another cup of coffee..add some milk to be honest I prefer to say I love you and ready for consequences of being in love

with these imperfections.. we are perfect, baby.. because we welcome our imperfections...

over cups of coffee, she told me whether she has a perfect relationship or not. checklist is kept in her handbag all should be met right time with the right person and for years she keeps talking and waiting maybe she does fall in love with her checklist not with the one whom with her now

be imperfect... so I could be a perfectly human that has wings to soar

is it interesting? that I cannot control things that I want to maybe... this tells me that opening up and be a brave one are huge leaps to meet myself face to face feeling the true love inside

“Everything in the universe is within you. Ask all from yourself.” ― Rumi

you said.. I cant stop loving you.. I did smile and say..have known this before I met you.. that I do love you completely “Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.” ― Rumi

let others win the game smile with them while they are spreading their winning grins watch them adding their prides be kind so life will let you win the real important ones for you because you focus on them and not on small unimportant things

life should be light and flowing...

could you find us in thousands of promises love notes, hopes..kept in Seoul tower please, find us.. in simplicity of love when reality is accepted by our egos and love should be easy and comforting

feeling the vibe from new places.. its beauty, icy breeze, cold weather and yellow leaves surrounding by strangers try to taste how they think, feel and love, their history traveling and being alone make me realize the beauty is inside and whatever I see...I see beauty whoever I see...I see love and missing you more

“Travel brings power and love back into your life.” ― Rumi

wiser or not smarter or not I always shrug my shoulders and wink my pride doesn't laugh knowing others have their weaknesses

I am crowded with thoughts and feelings.. my attention is taken by events, journeys, places, people, seasons.. life is running too fast seeing you, with you or not missing you.. makes me cry please stop..so I could linger on every detail of us I need to freeze all in a moment, but I could not.. maybe it is true that only love could freeze our life... make it stop for a moment in us

"No one is born hating another person because of the color of his skin, or his background, or his religion. People must learn to hate, and if they can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite.” ― Nelson Mandela , Long Walk to Freedom

jump so high laugh, giggle do crazy and silly things wondering around and be amazed by every detail of my life could not stop this, I swear I am just a kid trapped inside

learned one thing today running away from reality means... running away from meeting with myself fear to acknowledge the "me"

do you know what is my favorite place to hide? it is in your arms.. i could thinking nothing but feel everything

what do you see? moons, stars, suns, vast sky, clouds, mountains, lakes past, stories, hopes, wishes, and love an universe in me you have yours whenever your eyes meet mine we become the center of those beauty

there is only one way, i guess accepting the reality getting nowhere if we try to run away starting here, right beside acceptance

now, you could see directly to their hearts some are getting closer others prefer to add more to your sadness please, contemplate on love give them permission to stay far as they need to but keep your heart open wide so they could come if they want to

be careful with what you ask for things come easily... just be friend with your heart

I asked life so many questions life answered it is easy to stay in love when could see him as he is

my dear.. why do you keep chasing him? prays and waiting for so long its him inside your brain..ticking and knocking maybe its time letting him go enjoy the feeling of tears relieve it is not because he could be replaced it is because you need to see life goes by

had  a tiring day yesterday made you and me... thinking of how life should be and yes, sometimes when we asked the question.. love was not one of those answers I said that's life c'est la vie those bumpy roads make my life and yours more adventurous and its okay as long as we could sip our coffee and enjoy one fine day after and forgiveness say...am I important or not? we laugh as usual

find me among my dreams.. what ever I do.. breakfasts, lunches, dinners alone or with you through sleeping or wide awake strolling down at night or busy reading or writing Paris, London, Jogja, Ubud.. where ever I go dreams ignite me make me walking in wonder breathing with hopes and listen with love they say I am too old to believe in dreams I say its okay to believe in myself

don't feel sorry.. c'est la vie.. for beauty we have, this abundance of simple luxury.. that's because we celebrate life as it is

your face,  my laugh, and the way you tell your stories... they are wonders.. remind me again and again that you are beyond okay to be who you are

do you really think? that people, events, friendships did collaborate pains, laughs, smiles even failures did meet secretly to create opportunities they discussed for nights and days behind our knowledge do u see now? they are laughing in satisfaction when see us walk together acknowledge that our past stories are intercepting into us and now

today, i want and need to slow down be lazy, no multitasking, no jogging do one thing in one time.. not tether focus on my blackberry..rushing to answer e mails.. its not a sin to slow down and enjoy

today is not your another ordinary day come and look at those details slow down... simple happiness, they are around you, scattered, waiting....

dear me, there is only one way .. fear or love and please choose love over fear.. because love tells,  fear is only a shadow you are getting tired by chasing persons or place that promise you safety don't blame them..they are innocence just like fears

there is a shiny gold sun inside my coffee.. it appears whenever i talk to you our discussion are crowded with understanding, simplicity, honesty in hours and days...this warm sun stays with me

I do under estimate my life when assuming that I have such an ordinary life

i said you are annoying me you looked directly into my eyes smiled, winked, and said, you are too.. we laughed 

it is always..drinking a cup of coffee with you makes me forget that I had to spend years before I am sitting with you now

so amazing how things are coming my way no conflict,and  for me..humanity is about borrowing your sights looking deep into your heart and brave enough to be humble saying again and again.. you are the one who make me complete.

are with us now.. whispering, make us looking into each others' eyes

they may sit with you now.. tap your shoulder lightly.. smile while you keep insist staring to the other direction far away

The first living cell came into being nearly 40 million centuries ago, and its direct descendants are in all of our bloodstreams. Literally you are breathing molecules this very second that were inhaled by Moses, Mother Teresa, and Bono. We are vastly interconnected. Our fates are inseparable. We are here because the dream of every cell is to become two cells. And dreams come true. In each of you are one quadrillion cells, 90 percent of which are not human cells. Your body is a community, and without those other microorganisms you would perish in hours. Each human cell has 400 billion molecules conducting millions of processes between trillions of atoms. The total cellular activity in one human body is staggering: one septillion actions at any one moment, a one with twenty-four zeros after it. In a millisecond, our body has undergone ten times more processes than there are stars in the universe, which is exactly what Charles Darwin foretold when he said science would di

in Jogja where time stops, unfolding her rich history and the past..salute for them and us, find us simply for feasts, celebrating each moment of ours

did they make me cry? my tears streamed down, trembling saw those silvery blue white did you talk to me could you? forgive me, face to face with your undistinguished beauty these eyes of mine forget to remind me to stop and admire, simply be grateful

an opening door to the world where we could see clearly and feel love without surreal judgements no false ego, it is just another journey of pure enjoyment with no separation allowed yes, its fear that tells you other stories and while we are here let our love is the only language to be spoken